Meet the Model: Hannah


This will be the first post for the Endless Love Blog, feels a bit momentous to be honest, a drawing class I started a year ago with some savings and a plan to get people together and get creative in a super social, super welcoming environment and here I am a year later with a blog post and a website. I will probably over share this story and journey a lot more but the main factor and something that would seem so obvious is transparency. I want you to come to our nights and know what you're letting yourself in for..Joke they're great please come, you'll love them.

But a huge part of the night is the model, you'll be studying the way they curve, freckles on their shoulders how their smile slowly changes as you can see them drop into thought for the longer poses. You may never have met, or might have briefly seen on instagram this person, or i'll say their name at the beginning but because you've learnt a gazillion names you've already forgotten.

So anyway ahem this is me sharing with you our models, I will do this every time we have a new model so you get to know a little bit about the person that will be very still for the 1 hour 45 mins of drawing time.



For inspiration in it’s purest sense, it sounds really cliche but I read a book ages ago called The Meditations by Marcus Aurelius, who was a roman emperor from 161-180 and the book is his private notes to himself and ideas on Stoic philosophy, and some good quotes that stuck with me are: “When you arise in the morning think of what a privilege it is to be alive, to think, to enjoy, to love …”, “If you are distressed by anything external, the pain is not due to the thing itself, but to your estimate of it; and this you have the power to revoke at any moment.”, “when anything tempts you to feel bitter: think not "This is misfortune," but "To bear this worthily is good fortune”. There’s a lot in books that make me think better of the world, or help me escape it, and this is one good example (and that I highly recommend to read!).



It’s something that I’ve wanted to do for aaaages but haven’t been body confident enough to. I’m trying to make less decisions out of fear and live a bit more boisterously in the face of my inner anxious Han saying ‘NoooOOO YOU can’t do THAT’. I think I’ve come on leaps and bounds in the past few years and am super proud of myself. I studied art as a foundation diploma and art is a subject I’ve liked forever, and so pushing my boundaries in something I’m otherwise comfortable in seems like a good move. 


Currently I work with the psychiatry & nursing team in community mental health services in Leeds as a secretary, as a loose plan for the future I’d really like to go study mental health nursing as a degree, with the hopes of going onto do a masters in art psychotherapy!  At college my two favourite subjects were fine art and psychology, so it seems like an ideal mid-ground.


One thing that really sticks in my mind is a recent exhibition I went to at The Photographer’s Gallery in London, called Under Cover: The Secret History of Cross Dressers which was so interesting and intimate, made up predominantly of a series of photographs from the personal archives of Sébastian Lifshitz of drag queens & kings, cross dressers, and trans men & women dating from 1880 onwards. There was so much info with it too about how that scene has developed and changed over time. 


I’ll keep to just today, as my favourites change all the time, but currently listening to Alice Coltrane - Divine Songs and Sun Ra - Lanquidity albums. It’s sunny for the first time in what feels like forever so I think jazzy fits the mood! The kraut-rock band Can has also been a frequent one this week, personal top album is Ege Bamyasi.